Oh man, so I just had a great dream and a really sad dream. Old man ;_; Don't go like Akagi did ;_;

I just don't understand why Ms. Newcomer was in the sad one. wtf. but Tucker actually did *something useful*, oh my god. But yeah. D: NICE OLD GUY, NOOOO

A-and the good dream was about a con, lol. Why are all of my dreams about cons now. D:

Well, it's 3:19 right now, so obviously I'm too lazy to remember to post my entries after I write them. Just had piano half an hour ago, and then I actually went outside on my own volition for a walk! It was pretty nice outside, though a bit windy. No one's online to talk to and I'm getting tired of being killed by Mamudo every time I try to train, wtf, so I.. went outside. And it wasn't that bad.

Of course, now I'm back to playing P3. Supposedly the 5th block is technicolored, which I'm pretty excited about. The color schemes of the first three blocks are fun to look at the first time you enter them, but get tiring to look at really quickly. After a while it's like the Abandoned Factory level in Abyss all over again, ffff. D:

I- I also played some Touhou but I quit after a while. I should practice on the spell cards some more so I can actually save some of my lives to 1'cc the game, lol.

But yeah, I should be going over to Giselle's tomorrow for fabric purchasing and.. idk, vidya gaems. It should be fun. I wonder when Jenna's moving here?

I feel too tired to work, way too tired. >>; And I can't find my ruler, boo.. I want to take a nap so badly. Argh!

And yesterday and today, I actually managed to fall asleep after I finished my diagnostic tests (and I finished in the first 20-30 minutes for all of them and got like, an hour to sleep for each one) and I had dreams! I saw/heard hypnogogia for the first one and pretty much got over seeing them now, so that's extremely good. :D I was actually trying to focus the image to turn into something, but it didn't work out too well. The second one today, it was kind of lucid but I didn't get anywhere. I was just trying to communicate to some dream characters I wanted to appear on a laptop, but none of them would IM me back. >:

Anyway, erm, rebuilding my bridge side right now. I found my craft knife, so it should be easier today. Waiting for the test paint to dry so I can see what color it comes out to... It seems to match my trim color, so that's good.

Three dreams to write about!

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Uh, dream last night.

( dream )

Hello! Three dreams to write down, including one lucid part. They're more like fragments since I can't remember the whole thing through. Still working on getting my dream recall back to normal.

Also - Traded aikodestiny Taijiya 12, Hanyou 17 for Nun 04, Nun 17. Haruhara has Nun 05 on hold for me. Prodigy 07, Monster 10, Hanyou 15 from Guess the Anime. Nun 06, Maou 19, Selene 02 from Guess the Mascot. Despair 13, Fox 02, torture 20, bronze cert from distorted. heir 18 nun 19 perfect 06 wind 10 from seiyuu guess. bronze cert bronze cert pudding 11 pilot 04 sharp 10 monster 15 man 11 from guess the op. fox 16 theEND 07 from freebie. hanyou 15 wind 10 fox 02 fox 16 for boots 02 boots 17 demon 06 demon 02 - aikodestiny. traitor 19 for nun 05 - haruhara.

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I really really want to watch Battle Royale now ughhsgdafjoi. It's going to be gory though. :( Decisions, decisions.

Also, I need to do my two writing assignments. So lazy.

So I went to Port St. Lucie with Jasmine yesterday~ :D

We left at like 7 and didn't get there until around 8 or 9, and during the car ride we just watched Sensei and listened to a few songs while we were driving there. We had some really good pizza and played on her laptop, then we fell asleep at around 12. I woke back up at around 2 and couldn't get back to sleep until around..... 6 in the morning. Ew. But during that time I watched some more Sensei, as well as take pictures of Chloe, who came in and out of the room and played with me while I was trying to fall asleep. <3

I -did- have a lucid dream when I managed to fall asleep, so that made me happy. Though it makes me realize how stubborn my subconscious is, so I'm going to have to beat the crap out of it or torture it when I get into another lucid dream. :( TAKE ME TO OURAN PLS.

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WHAT DOES MY SUBCONSCIOUS HAVE AGAINST ME? I'm going to cunt punt that bitch when I see her.

Uh. Anyway, we just hung around and played games on Jasmine's laptop, then we had some good sandwiches. |D We started writing fanfiction on her laptop since there was nothing else to do, and somehow we ended up writing hentai. She can write it with a straight face, I can't believe it. :( Well, we got in the car around 1 or 2 and went to the mall/borders nearby. I bought myself Emma 3 and Ouran 1 (resisted the urge to get the Densha Otoko novel since I didn't like the way they translated some parts), and then Jasmine got me Instant Teen 3 and 4. |D; Now that series is complete, yay?

Well. Yeah. We went back in the car, started to watch some anime on my mp3 player again. But we got bored so we pulled out the laptop. And we wrote moar hentai. :( I actually wrote some myself rofl. She was teaching me how to write it without stopping to laugh every few seconds. I deleted my first attempt and then she saved my second attempt. |D;

O BTW CARISSA, JASMINE WROTE FANFICTION OF MY FANFIC LOL

Um. Yeah. Then we just went back to her house. Jeffery came over and we hung out, sitting on Jasmine. |D And we had some good dinner, quesadillas and chicken and pizza rolls and cole slaw~ I also laughed myself hoarse on this emofic of Kyouya (he was slitting his wrists so I put "Daniel Powter - Bad Day" on in the background) and this autofellatio fic I found on Adult Fanfiction ROFL ROFL. Gosh, I'm not as flexible as I thought. (YES I WAS TRYING THE POSITIONS THEY DESCRIBED, HAHA)

Um. Then Jeffery left and we just hung around for a little while until I had to leave too.

Also - I have 47 manga right now. :(

Well, we got back and then my dad took me to Circuit City to get me sum new headphones. I ended up getting the Marshmallow ones from JVC, though the Sony Funtopia ones looked nice too. And... now I'm here!

I still have like 5 trades to respond to and 5 games to update, blah. I also need to post some Teevee TCG games, which... I'll do tomorrow. :( Too lazy..

And right now I owe Jasmine $21~$22 as well as a birthday present that I need to find. I also have to read D.Gray-man 3 and 4, as well as Loveless 3, Instant Teen 3 and 4, Emma 3, and Ouran 1.

Yeah, Emma 2 was all ripped so I didn't get it. :S I hope I can find a copy somewhere around here, or I'll be sad.

OH AND THEY HAD SOCRATES IN LOVE -- THE NOVEL AND THE MANGA, WHAT. Ugh, I totally should have gotten them~ I'll just ask my dad to order the novel online for me if I really and truly can't find it anywhere around here.

I think that's all. I have maths to do, and I probably have World History as well but meh.

....and research, lol.

O WELLS. Gotta put some stuff on my mp3 player~

Okay, I know I haven't been making any real entries since school started. :( Yeah, gotta change that. So! Let's see, what's there to write about?

My birthday is on Tuesday. Not that excited, but meh.

Tomorrow is the weekend! Yay. I have no idea what I'm going to do though, so I guess I'll call Carissa or something.

New icon! Because Gilgamesh has one of the cutest smiles. :( ffs.

Uh... Meaghan and I are going to get Eternal Sonata and play it on her 360.... when she gets it. I was fangirling over the game on the bus, seriously. "WHEN DID CHOPIN GET SO HOT?! WHAAATTTTT." Haha, I was screaming. :D; Chopin's so cute though~ In the game~ You can NOT tell that he's supposed to be 39. He looks like, 17 or 18.

I've been slacking on a bunch of stuff, but I know what I'm going to do for RSoM if I do get published (very slim chance). I'm wondering what the hell a.f.k. is doing right now, since they've completely stopped subbing any new anime. But! Back to RSoM for the moment, I've got two ideas to pitch if I get published. I'm also going to adapt Emi's story into a manga version if... I get bored enough. I haven't done my Death Note bookmarks yet, I'm wondering if I should just do my other KH bookmarks before I start on DN. I still have two prints to complete, so I need to get chopping on those.

I actually remembered my dream last night! Yay! My dream recall's been dying again since my mom likes to wake me up before I get a chance to remember the dream. That, or the alarm clock wakes me up. I brought my DJ to school with me and wrote it down. |D I'll just put down the lucid part of it as well as what basically happened because I'm too lazy to type the whole thing down.

( dream )

annnd... that's it. I want to go to bed earlier so I can have a chance to recall my full dream instead of being interrupted by something, but it's really hard for me to get to sleep before 10, which sucks because I need to go to bed at like 9:30 to get a full 8 hours of sleep.

I think I'm going to start working on writing or something like that for now, and then move on to drawing once I get bored. I need to work on my memoir project anyway, for English.

I think that's all I can write, anyway. |D; I didn't forget about Fate/stay night, but ehhhh I want to do something semi-productive right now. I'll finish the game later/tomorrow.

Lucid dream! Finally, I can truly say I'm getting out of my slump. And I could pretty much remember this one all the way through, yaaay~

( dream )

BUT. BUT! THAT'S PROGRESS.

Since spinning doesn't take me to the place I want to go, I suppose changing the scenery around me is just as good. :D I can't build a "gray" like WritersCube did, but I can probably use it if I try (and remember it), so I might try teleporting with that too. Getting to the train station that would take me to Ouran was awesome. It just means I'm getting closer~

I just slightly regret the fact that SUMMER'S ALMOST OVER (nooouuu), so I won't have as much time to work on lucid dreaming as I could have done over the summer. Seriously, I won't get to take my afternoon naps where most of my LDs come from, and doing WBTB will be hell (unless I wake myself up 4 hours after I fall asleep and then go back right after). But I won't let a little thing like school get me down. /o/ This encourages me!

.........And now I want to write Ouran fanfiction. Dammit.

CAN'T YOU SEE I NEED TO WATCH GURREN LAGANN RIGHT NOW.

Fucking muses. (I'll do it when I hit episode 15)

Uhh.. IN other news, I have to go to a 4-hour-long orientation tomorrow, whee! And since Suncoast is like a freaking hour away, that means I have to get up at 7:00 or so. I'll sleep in the car. :D

Also: They sell Moleskine notebooks at B&N? what? WHAT. :(

Someone please drive me to B&N right now, for I need one~

(Yes, I want one because of Gunslinger Girl. Hush!)

oh, I'm extremely happy... I can remember most of my dream. :D

I just can't sleep because of all the noise this morning. oh well.

( dream )

ANYWAYYYyyyyyy... I've got like 5 emails overnight. Geez, I'm glad I went to sleep. Time to update my freaking tcg post.

My dreams are coming back to me and for that part I'm thankful. They're still as weird as ever, but... I don't care, as long as I can remember them. :D

( dream )

Give me a normal dream please. Kyouya as an ADD child is amusing, but I WANT TO TALK TO HIS NORMAL SELF TOO. *cry*

Well, right now I'm sitting here with nothing to do. I'll get to work soon. /o/ Though I think I should work on RSoM first, I have 4 months for that while I only have around two months to prep for Chibi-Pa. I dunno.

I think I should get lunch first. :D

Ahh, okay. Just took a nap, more LDs.

( dreams )

nnnn, I wonder if I've fallen into some sort of slump. My dream recall's dying, and I can't stay in my LDs for too long anymore. I guess the first order of business will be to get my dream recall back in order again, and then work on staying in my LDs again. And I have to remember my objective this time. T_T; I tell it to myself before I go to sleep, but I always forget it in the dream!

Now that I think about it, maybe the reason that I'm not remembering my dreams as well is because I've been lazy to write down the ones that aren't too exciting or the ones where I'm not lucid in them. I should start posting them all in here (since I don't like writing by hand), and then just making them private or something. I'll just keep the interesting ones public. /o/

P.S. - Konayuki lyrics here: http://honyakukonyaku.livejournal.com/7167.html
Sekai wa Sore wo Ai to Yobundaze lyrics here: http://www.kiwi-musume.com/lyrics/sambomaster/sekaiwasorewoaitoyobundaze.html

Oh jeez I think I just had like a 20 minute long LD. XD Or semi-LD but a;dkjf;sjf it was so loonnggggg

but I forgot the whole middle of it, crap. :( I remember it vaguely but not enough to write it down.

Well, okay, my parents and I were in a new house and I was getting used to it. There was this guy that we were hiding out for some reason, so he came in and sneaked around in the bathroom when a bunch of agents came in. We had this awesome rig of 5 computers so I hopped around and looked at some of the stuff we had while I was waiting for it to load up. We were in a Japanese-ish styled house for some reason.

And then... I'm not sure what happened but Densha Otoko was looking for a place to live or something? His friends from the drama were there too. We were rigging up our computers in my house and stuff. And then akdjf;adjf I don't really remember this part. I think it actually had something to do with a movie or a game or something. There was something about a guy in there too. I just know I was lucid for most of this, and I slipped out of the dream at some point. I was rubbing my dream hands to get my visuals back, and hosnap it worked.

Zoomed back into the dream. We were at the convenience store and we were going to get supplies. The lady that was with us asked us if just these supplies were good enough and Densha's friends said that these power packs were good enough to power all of their laptops. So we were walking around and we were in the freezer aisle and Densha grabs a bunch of these ice cream bars. I'm all "HAY I WANT ONE" and he unwraps part of it and dangles it over his shoulder and runs rofl. I follow and I wrestle it away from him and take a bite. There's also this lady following us like she wanted the ice cream too, haha. Well, we got to the checkout line and I zoomed out of the dream again, and I could see silhouettes but I couldn't zoom back in.

I don't know why I didn't immediately try to get to Ouran. Maybe it was because I was only semi-lucid and didn't remember my goal again. But this shows me that I can have longer LDs, so I'm happy that I can get there and not wake up immediately after seeing Kyouya, rofl. :D I need to have higher level LDs and be able to remember my goal! But this'll be decently easy to practice considering that I'm having one nearly every day now. :D eeee~

Lucid dream, hoo~

I dreamt that I was in my mom's room loafing around on 4chan/TCG when she kicked me out, so I'm all "mutter mutter" and then I suddenly realized that it was a dream~ I checked my hands, and they had around seven fingers on them. I also pushed a finger partly through my hand, and the skin was stretching and stuff~ So I walked back out of my room (I had crossed the house to my room by then) and decide to use some sustaining method. I said "Increase lucidity!" a few times which seemed to work, and then I also found a bottle of water and drank it slowly while feeling the rough texture of the fabric of my rolling chair (which was out in the hallway for some reason). They all seem to work, but maybe I'll just pop a lucid pill next time. :D Way faster and works just as well.

Anyway, I woke up around here. Bah, must have expended my sleepiness. Might try to get back to sleep in a little bit.

Now that I know which sustaining methods tend to work for me, I need to start working on teleportation again. :( Or work on dream incubation so I don't need to try to get to Ouran every time I become lucid. ee~

Before that was pretty routine. I was dreaming about some TCG things and character profiles, and then I dreamt that I was hanging out with Candace and Shad. Nothing too exciting~

sooo happy right now.

I actually wrote this down in my journal around 7 hours ago but didn't get around to posting it. I guess I'll type it up before I go take a nap.

( dream )

ARGH I AM SO FREAKING CLOSE. :D DAMN.

I had a lucid dream! Kita----! Semi-lucid again cause I wasn't thinking clearly again haha. ;_; Either that or an FLD. so close~!

( dreams )

buuuhh, I still want to get some melatonin pills from vitamin world or something. hopefully they'll let me buy them. e_e; And now I gotta go brush my teeth and then drink lots of water cus I'm dehydrated~

I'm dreaming like a madman lately. XD I love this. <333

Well, no luck of teleporting again but I did remember my objective this time, at least.

First time, I just realized all of a sudden while I was in my house or something, sitting around with my dad and brother. Walked into my mom's room, paced around for a bit while I swallowed a heckload of lucid pills and said controls to get my lucidity up. Went back outside, left the house, and tried to teleport by going through the door. Didn't work... :( I was on this big hill instead, (or was this the second one?) and there was some sort of drama going on involving airplanes. So I was all "meh" and argued with this person for a little bit before I woke up (I was still swallowing pills like House takes Vicodin, haha)

I switched back into the dream, found myself and told myself I was dreaming. Took a pill, but I think this time my brother was trying to kill me haha. I went into my mom's room and shut the door to try and teleport, but the door didn't fit into the frame right and my brother comes over with this creepy look on his face and pulls some of the wood apart. So I'm all "fuck it" and try to teleport. No bust. Fade out.

Realized I was dreaming a third time, and took some pills. Surprisingly, I didn't find a pill in my pocket on one go and I was all "graahh" trying to find it. I went over to my mom's mirrors and tried teleporting by mirror. I couldn't really push through the glass when I was charging through with my front facing the glass, so I turned around and fell through the glass backwards. I got through it, but woke up before I saw anything. D:

I need to figure out a way to prolong my dreams as well as teleport. I might try WILD, but seeing as how I'm getting a LD practically every other day with DILD... hmm.

Had an LD. :D Or an FLD. Aaahhh..

I was at my house, except it wasn't -my- house and it wasn't set up at all like it. The fridge was in the living room, etc. Anyway, somewhere in there I just automatically realized that this was a dream, probably when I got switched to the school. I know I was on 4chan somewhere before that, and had accidentally shown /d/ to my dad for a second, rofl.

Anyway, got switched into this school thing. I was in the gym. I was talking to a bunch of people and looking at their.. festive outfits, when I realized that "hey ohshit i should make them wear uniforms HAHA" so I made everyone wear a japanese school uniform. :D Now around here I was all "hmm.. I should go to Ouran..." but meh, I got put in the gym. And then I was chatting with some people here (I think I went unlucid around here for a little bit), and I got warped to watch the gym from an overhead view. There was this guy hovering next to me, I knew he had the same powers as me. He made some stuff pour into the gym, and I knew it killed all of the people there. So I pointed my index finder at the gym, lifted the stuff off with telekinesis, point again to restore the gym floor and revive everyone. Then I went back down to the gym floor and found a random person.

"mmkay you're going to turn into Kyouya now plzkthx"
"I don't know who that is..? D:"
"tall, black hair, glasses?"
"nope, sorry"

:(

So I decide to fly. Flew through the roof, it felt weird and it kind of stretched a bit haha. The outside was so lovely~ After a few buildings, it was all green and rolling hills. :D Blacked out for a minute here, then came back and realized that I should probably take a lucid pill but my arms were inside my shirt argh. Tried to get them out but I woke up again.

I know I'm missing a bunch of stuff in the gym, but psh to that.

I wonder if the past few 'LD's I've been having are really just FLDs... I don't think I would forget my primary objective (go to Ouran, find Kyouya) that easily. Oh well. Even if they are FLDs, it means I'm close to getting more frequent LDs. :D So yay to that.

And now that I think about it, it might have been a dream with low lucidity throughout but I still had enough to do what I wanted. I just wasn't thinking too rationally and forgot my goal about reaching Ouran. (I always chant "I will go to Ouran, I will have a lucid dream" before bed, but this time it changed to "I will see Kyouya, I will have a lucid dream" lulz)

And I think Ashley Bonner was there too, and she was the one that told me to stay away from Hikaru. Mmm. I dunno. D: But I -do- know that he had a crush on me in the dream, haha. That was the reason why he was being so emo because I was avoiding him. I'm sorry, Hikaru~